use me, break me, waste me on You, Lord

Ruin me, take me, waste me on You

For to die is to live.

To starve is to feast

And less of me is more of Jesus

Lord, I want it all

Lord, I want it all

If i lose my life I gain everything

And at the cross Away with all death's sting

Lord, I want it all

Lord, I want it all

There is power in the blood

There is victory in Jesus

Come in power, wash me clean

Overwhelm me with Your presence

There is power in the blood

There is victory in Jesus

Help me glory in the cross

Help me find my gain in loss

gosh this is my hearts cry. just use me Lord.

4.25.08 from old to NEW...

When I look in the mirror I see someone who has failed. I see self-hatred written all over my fore head. My relationship with men has been damaged due to being a product of a fatherless generation. Looking for acceptance in all the wrong places sure to find it. As I found it I stayed in that place of misery. I like living in complacency and comfort because it’s easy. It’s easy to let my mind be a whirlwind and settle for a statuesque life. Eight months ago I was that very person.

My life is not my own. It’s been set apart by God to do crazy thing for God. The past seven months of my life have been what I like to call, “wrecked for the normal.”

Course one seemed like it was going to be the hardest three months of my life. But I had wrongfully accused the “first course”. I didn’t have in mind what course one was actually about, “my identity in Christ.” God sure enough started a mass destruction in me about how He sees me and how I should see myself. One thing that He has shown me is that I’m His princess. Some one once said to me. “A daughter of a King is a princess.” It’s so true and even as I sit and type this letter it’s hitting me like a load of bricks. God is my Daddy and I’m His precious little princess. God totally restored me. He’s gently taken the time to show me my beauty as a woman. Also I’ve allowed Him to begin to remove the heart of stone I’ve had for so long and replace it with a heart of flesh. It’s amazing how this new heartbeat beats. I take a look at all the places that He’s brought me from. It seems as the impossible but I believe that it’s possible. Now I’m at a place where it’s easier for me to walk in the strong beautiful person He’s made me to be.

Now I am a woman of God who is willing to be used as a vessel. I can stand firm in who God has created me to be. You might ask… who has He created me to be. Well He’s made me as a victorious woman of God. I am chosen, peculiar, set apart, His royalty, beautiful, loved, and compassionate, I’m called to be love, I could keep going and going. I know that God has great plans for my life and I’m excited to see them unfold.

I can’t even fathom what my life would look like with out having had the chance to be a part of something so crucial. I know that I would still be so complacent and hopeless if I had not had the opportunity to take part in this journey. Next year I will return to RAD as an intern. I want nothing more than to be used by God to help disciple the next year’s class. Now that I’ve experienced RAD I can’t imagine my life without this life changing transformation and this family that I am now a part of.

Thank you to all who support and believe in this ministry. It’s because of people like you that it’s possible for us to be impacted and than go and impact others.

4.24.08 a dedication...

to the woman that have taken the time to show me what unconditional love looks like,

mom maria,
you are just amazing. i remember our late night talk at the house. i also remember the many times you would just take the time to listen. it still means so much to me. i love you. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!

cris,
well it's cause of you really that i'm even at RAD. thank you so much that you have chosen to be such an amazing woman in my life. i still remember our starbucks meeting and how superficial i was. now as i look back on that i just have to laugh. thanks so much for taking me under your wing. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!

mom lisa,
you have in such a gentle way taken me in as one of your own here at RAD this year. it means so much more than words could ever say. thanks for believing in me. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!

mom beth,
hey you. you have taken me in your home as one of your own. i've never not felt safe in you arms. thanks for showing me love the way you do. you have done so much for me. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!

mom linda,
your warm hugs are so comforting. i remember just being in your arms and not being able to do anything but cry. thanks so much for your hugs. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!

kate bell,
what can i say friend. you have this God thing about you and you have truly shown me what real love locks like. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!

britnney leigh,
what more could a girl ask for in a best friend. i still remember the first time i meet you and how i asked for your number and from there it was history. the many night st starbucks getting to know you. oh those days. buddy i love you so much. thank you for loving me the way you do. thanks for being an inspiration in my life. it's because of woman like you that i am the woman of God i am today. i love you!!


thanks to all you woman for your love and support.

4.23.08

hey hey fans. well this is going to be a short but good one. so i spoke on a radio station today. i was so nervous for nothing. when i actually started to talk i was fine. (i think.) it was super fun and we all did good. we being rob, kate bell, and myself. all i did was speak about the transformation that has been happening in my life. i truly have been transformed. it's amazing to even look back and see what i was and now who i am and the destiny on my life. aaaaa i love God so much i can't hardly contain myself right now.

4.22.08 (i hear a war cry...)

words spoken to me from Linda Griffis. one of my spiritual moms.

"I was meditating and praying last night for four special young ladies in my life (you are one) and the Lord gave me the most exciting vision for you! You were all decked out in battle gear (literally, kind of medieval) with sword drawn, and I heard myself praying "Father, teach her hands to war!" (scripture reference 2 Samuel 22:35, Psalm 18:34, Psalm 144:1) How cool is that? I was going to write you about that today, but just haven't had a chance til now. I'm feeling that this is spiritual warfare, not physical, but who knows?! There is much more to all this, but I just can't put it all down in words yet. When I can, I'll let you know!"


2 Samuel 22:35 He trains my hands for war, so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
and psalm 18:34 also reads the same as 2 Samuel.
psalm 144:1 Blessed be the LORD, my rock, who trains my hands for war, and my
fingers for battle

i am being called to fight. this is amazing to me. this is confirmation to me. i love what the Father is doing in my life. it's also so crazy how the enemy knows what is going on and how much of a threat we can be to him. he will do anything and everything he possibly can to distract us. even as to try and throw things from your past at you. but how amazing that that's really the only thing he's got on us is our past. holla back. i like this post.

4.21.08

today is a special day. today my guy best friend turns the same age as me again. 24 yessssss. so jamie happy birthday!!

now i will talk about my day hick i did with some of "the girls." we did a short 1.1 mile hick to some beautiful water falls. the place was called dukes creek falls. it was amazing. i had so much fun and the view is a-ma-zing. so here are some photos from out hick.

4.18.08

Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and go do that because what the world needs is people who have come alive. --John Eldridge

i don't even really know what to say about this besides the fact that it's so true and that it's wrecking me a bit.

life is a journey and i am so excited to be on the journey i am on. life change is crucial and now that i know what it looks like i wouldn't want it to be any diffrent. i have embarked on a journey. a journey that is taking me to a place of abondonment for the Father. i want to be alive to this hopeless and dying world.

Daddy thank you so much for using me as a vessel amen!

4.17.08

hey friends and family i'm trying to see what we can do about getting you guys to be able to post.

sorry and thanks to all for checking my blog out.

4.16.08

o.k so the july 08' squad was here for a ten day training camp. i will talk about the deep stuff later but for now let me just go ahead and talk about jen crane. one night we decided to do a battle of capture the flag three way. three diffrent teams all at once plus it was in the pitch darkness of the night. well jen decided she would take one for her team. she heard one of the boys on top of the showers so she went after him right. well when he jumped down from the top of the shower house she took a dive for him. mind you it's pitch black outside and she couldn't see anything. so she dove for him to find herself in a thorn bush. she casualy walks up to the staff that had been watching the game and asks for a first aid kit. not really seeing the fullness of it we walked her up to the office to get one and it was quite crazy to see her beat up bloddy arm. to top it off she's a nurse so she doctored herself up and headed right back out to finish the game. she sure did have some nice cuts, blood and bruises. i love it. she's got a sticktoitivness about her. so i don't even know if her team made won or not but she sure did go for it big time. the girls did go all out for this crazy game of capture the flag.

4.16.08

It’s hard to believe that I’m 45 days out from graduating. The life transformation that has happened is almost hard to even begin to explain.Right now I’m in course three of RAD. What that looks like is Rob the director picks a place where is best suitable for each individual to intern at. I got sent to this place called AIM (Adventures in Missions.) Here I am embarking on a new journey of learning the ins and outs of a discipleship program. The people I work with and the community here is amazing. I know that God is going to do great things here with me. I can’t wait to see the end result.Being away from my other family (RAD) is hard. I now see how real and raw we are with each other and I must say I miss it. I miss being totally exposed and knowing that I have so many people to back me up in it. This is great to see and know because it shows me how I’ve changed and what it looks like to be free through confession and healing prayer. Also with what I’ve learned it would be hard to go back to old ways because I know what freedom look and feels like now.This life change is a journey that you all have taken a part in. I covet your prayers and would ask that you would continue to pray for me. I was asked to come back to RAD next year for an internship position. I know that this journey is not soon to come to an end. God is doing BIG stuff and it’s only going to get better from here. Here’s a need I will present to all of you. I’m still about $3000 owed in tuition. I’d really love for you to pray and consider supporting me. Support can be sent to RAD 3602 Looper Lake Rd. Gainesville, GA 30506. Remember this is a Kingdom thing and by sowing into my life you will be sowing into the many paths that I cross.Family and friends I can’t say enough thanks to all of you for your support, love, and generosity.With Passion & Purpose,Yvette

4.15.08

well i have spent a full ten days with some amazing people. i really have a better understanding of what community life looks like. i lived in community with about 40 plus people for ten days. it was amazing to see peoples hearts and how they love and care about one another. i love what has been modeled to me since the begining of RAD and wouldn't have it any other way now. i will write about this more soon.

4.10.08

it's so amazing to just be in the presence of the Father. last night was amazing. i was up at unicoi gap camping with about fifty young adults. we had a impactual worship encounter with our Daddy. He once again just took me in His huge hands and held me. it felt so good to feel three all over again even at the age of twenty four. to be continued...

4.5.08

sitting in the midst of You i find peace.

4.4.08

finally the time has come. i've made it to my internship. i am interning with AIM. right now things are crazy as 42 new world racers arrive today for a ten day traning camp. i think it's gonna be loads of fun. i will keep you all posted on how things are going.